“Hi! It’s a late night video. So this blog written by this lady named Dirt
did like a long post where she went into my facebook for like many years back, like 2011
to sort of I guess demonstrate to the world that I’m like an unhinged, crazy, like she
called me a “straightbian.”
And like the going into my facebook all the way back to 2011 is impressive because I post on facebook like 4 times a day. So like to get back to 2011 is like a project! I had a couple people reach out to me who were concerned for me, which is so lovely that I have…I don’t know, that I have people like that in my life. That last video I did about class was definitely the video that has gotten the most pushback, it wasn’t just Dirt’s post, there’s like a whole Reddit thread acting like what I said is that no one should medically transition.
And I gotta tell you, I looked at Dirt’s post a little bit, but it was so long, and you know, I’ve lived my life so, to see like a review of all the times that I had been crazy on facebook, it was like, “Well yeah, I know about that, I lived it.” I am well aware of how many times I’ve been crazy on facebook.
I do these videos understanding that I’m going to make some people upset and understanding that a lot of people aren’t going to get what I’m saying and also that people are going to take what I say in the videos in different ways.
I do try very very hard to be just very straightforward and honest in the videos, there seems to be some doubt about how long I took testosterone, but it was 9 months. I took testosterone for 9 months. And if you have a problem with me calling that medically transitioning, ok, alright, I don’t know…we can argue about words and
how to use words. The facts are that I took testosterone for 9 months, I was identified as trans for a year and half following those 9 months.
I don’t really do these videos to convince people to do a certain thing with their lives. I really do these videos because I do think that hearing alternate viewpoints helps peoplemake better decisions.
So if you watch these videos and you’re like, “This woman is crazy, she’s a crazy straight girl who was always trying to get attention” I’m ok with that. I feel chill about that. Like, that’s fine. You can think really anything you want to about me.
I just want you to make good decisions that create the future you really want for your life.
And if you watch my videos and you’re like, “Uh, this girl’s insane and I don’t have anything to learn from her and sorry you fucked up your life Carey Callahan but that’s not my business” ok. That’s ok.
Like, I wouldn’t be putting this material out there if I couldn’t handle that kind of pushback. I wasn’t really expecting people to compile all my photos from 2011 till now in one masterpost, but it’s ok.
I guess just person to person with Dirt, I’m….I only really scanned the post, I kind of readthe first part of it and then I like saw all the photos and I was like WHOA wow this woman really went through the facebook and it seemed…so I didn’t really get a sense of what you were upset with me with, it seemed like you were upset with me for being straight. Yeah, I don’t know what to tell you about that. I’ve tried to be straightforward about what my sexuality was before testosterone and what it has been since. I don’t know. I’ve tried to be straightforward and honest, and that’s because I think that has a lot of value.
And the people that I am mostly concerned about are people considering transition or people trying to make their way through detransition. Those are the two groups that I really like hope get something valuable out of hearing this crazy story from this crazy woman, right here. So I’m sorry I guess if you’re mad at me for being who I am and for having such a, yeah, totally crazy twenties, a totally crazy decade. And yeah, definitely posting some crazy shit on facebook too. I don’t know.
The other thing you gotta keep in mind about me is that I did like perform comedy for a decade so like I’m used to getting roasted in extreme ways. Like, when people say mean things about me on the internet I have definitely heard worse shit to my face from my very best friends. Like, I don’t know. A bunch of people got mad at me on the internet when I was like 26 and said terrible shit and that really freaked out, I think it like kinda re-traumatized me and shit, but like I’m sort of over that. Like….you can say whatever you want.
You can say I’m crazy, definitely that’s true, you can say I’m like an attention whore, yeah probably yeah. I was a comedian! I make youtube videos! You can say my teeth are messed up and my arms are fat and whatever. You can say whatever you want. I just hope that the people who need to get something from hearing a different kind of story get it. So what I’m saying is that like it’s ok that you went so far back in my facebook and acted sort of insane. You’re forgiven for being so weird about me. And everyone else who got so upset with that post about class, I kind of expected that people would get upset with that video. And on some level you are just also forgiven. And regardless about how you feel about me, have a good day, take care of yourself, take care of your body, be good. Alright guys, bye!”